Saturday, 24 July 2010

Knowing your strength

Someone told me this. "Eyy, you should learn how to be fierce and fight back. If not people will step on your head."


What the heck. Let's call that person Friend A.


Me: I know when to fight back.

Friend A: I've known you for quite some time already. I know you well.

Me: Well, let's just say I believe in being nice.

Friend A: That is why. That's your weakness. Being nice. Cannot be too nice.

Me: No. That's not my weakness. That's my strength.

Friend A: ......*Silent*.


Why is it that a lot of people have these kinda thought? That being nice means you're weak? You won't fight back, it means you're weak? You keep quiet in an argument, it means you're weak? You give in, it means you're weak?

Of course, some people are afraid to fight back. But not all of them who are like the above are weak. I don't care if people think I'm weak and that I don't know when to speak up and fight back. I don't care. I know myself better than anyone else (besides my mum, she knows me too well, sigh. Haha.). Speak for yourself. Are you strong enough to NOT fight back? Think about it.

It takes a whole lot of more strength to NOT fight back, to NOT get angry, to NOT use harsh/vulgar words than to do so. It takes a whole lot of more patience and strength to be nice, trust me. Try it yourself. When someone continuously find fault in you without valid reasons and make you angry, or anything that can make you go mad and scream. Try being patient and not retaliate. Easy? Nah, never an easy thing.

But it pays being nice. Worth it. I'm not trying to say that I'm all nice and innocent. That's bullsh*t. Sometimes I also cannot tahan. Sesungguhnya saya hanya insan biasa. Hahahahahaha. Macam paham. But for as long as I can tolerate and be patient, I will. I'm just heeding what my mum taught me anyway. Kill them with kindness. It works omg. But the pain...only God knows. But who cares, it works! God is fair.

Always have faith and bear in mind that what goes around comes around. Do good then you'll get it back. The worst is when something bad happens to you (mcm jatuh ditimpa tangga for example), when you feel that life is a waste? Got experience such a thing or not? Okay maybe not as worst. Something close to that? Then, you start being emo like no one cares and stuff? Everyone has their downfall before, I'm sure...obviously. Do you know/realised that sometimes it's because of what you did in the past, maybe like hurting your mum's feeling or cheating on your lover or beating somebody up or what ever else... Get what I mean? It's either that, or God is testing you.

Nobody said life is an easy thing. *Mcm paham yet again*. Hmm I was thinking, since I love talking about and wanting to understand life so much, I thought of taking Psychology or whatever related to life for my next semester's module. Hahahahahahaha....NOT. I'll see how.

It's been ages since I blog with paragraphs and a whole lot of chunks like today. Sorry to any non-malay readers for the mixed of languages.

Tak puas hati / If you're not happy, you can come talk to me. I'll be glad to talk to you too. :)  Thank you very nice.


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